Since I was little, I always had that "good guy" personality.
- holding doors
- picking up money that falls and giving it back
- helping elderly folk put groceries in the car
- paying for the person in front of me when they dont have enough money.
Somehow I grew up with this in mind. However, I noticed that these are moments that I keep pretty hidden to my peers, as I am:
- rude to my peers
- do not offer food to people
- do not buy from people begging outside of walmart
- turn my head at panhandlers.
However, despite this, there is one thing that I can't help. Now, when it comes to be a dude, I am the usual rough and tumble dude who cannot understand women. (Except for the endocrine system...thanks to my family).
No Homo...but...
I cry.
Okay, well thats not much of a revelation. Lets be more specific. I cry at happy events on tv. For example, on Maury (of all shows), they gave a woman who had a hardship and was struggling, money and a wardrobe to help her get on her feet.
I cried.
Or the story of
Susan Boyle I read about her and the hardships of her life.
I cried.
Remember the short lived wholesome Fox Show? (Wholesome and FOX in the same sentence...hmm), Secret Millionaire? Where the millionaires would live in secret among people who were less fortunate, and donate quite a bit of money to unsuspecting good people?
I cried every episode.
Extreme Home Makeover?
I cried.
Mike and Juliet giving a lady who lost her home to a fire a 5,000 giftcard to JCPenney?
I cried.
I dont know whats wrong with me. Perhaps I have a heart of some sort. Now it is interesting to note, I only do this in private. At Home... I just seem to be caught up in the emotion of the moment. Why am I telling the world? Well because I want to. I mean, I told you, Lent matures me as a person, and well, the fact that, I cant help but to tear up at happy moments...
Oh well....
(also, watch the Susan Boyle video...that shit is real...why the hell do people judge everyone on looks? It really makes you rethink...and even I want to apologize if I did that [which I am sure I have...])
Oh and to the dudes who are laughing...lets see if you cry if i punch you in your damn stomach. Right...Dont get it twisted, I am a Man, not a bitch, like you.
(that wasnt directed to anyone, just thought i needed to balance the crying with the meanness...grr. )
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well iLaugh, not because you cry, but because any idiot who would laugh at this is a damn fool. Sir, it seems somehow, in that toothpaste box of a body of yours (sorry, I didn't look away on that post like I should've and had a good laugh because of it), you've got a heart, and it actually works. smh. wow, who'd have thought it.
Anyway, I am with you on those shows... (sans tears) I literally caught myself watching HGTV the other night with a smile glued on my face that looked like the Kool-aid smile because a single mother and her daughter found a place to rent in their same neighborhood that they could afford... I honestly have a hard time crying. Like I said in a post a while back, I truly cried in 1999 at my grandma's funeral, and had tears when my sister lost her baby back in February (10 years later)... I actually wonder what's wrong with me at times, because I wish I could cry like I once did.
No Homo... Dude... You're quite a guy.
@manofcivility - I agree... I think I cried all my tears as a child... now my tears turn to anger, and my anger turns to motivation...
guess the only time I have really broken down was when my grandmother died in 2006... i didn't cry at the funeral... didn't cry at my uncle's funeral in 2008...
but it's all in being human... you're just like Joyner, and like Canty says, "you guys are noodles on the inside"... lol
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I see nothing wrong with a man crying. Im an only girl in my fam & I've seen my brothers and my dad cry. I've seen my ex cry. I don't think it's mushy or makes you less of a man. I think it makes you human.
ps: love the new layout. Did you make it yourself?
@manofcivility - @dadj_21 - omg, why are yall up so late? It's bed time, boys!
@dadj_21 - I fully agree. I was that kid in elementary that would cry if someone said I was too yellow... (obviously that was just about daily...) I think I was told to grow up, and in my head I thought growing up meant not crying again... It's weird, but I wanted to cry earlier this year, and thought I was going to, but wiped away about 4 or 5 tears and like you said, it just turned into anger... My anger was @ God, (which I still toil with), and it's the same for other situations.
@manofcivility - Thank you. My Mouthwash bead of a heart liked that. Now, on another spectrum, funerals, I am a mess, no matter who it is. I seem to be the weeping person there. I also cry (this is funny, please do laugh) when someone really does not make logical sense. My mind cannot process anything that doesnt come together logically...so, I cry because I cant logically understand, which in turn makes me laugh....
Oh and I cant forget the daily laugh with makes me cry...yes I laugh THAT hard.
Thanks, and No Homo back, same to you!
@dadj_21 - (I forgot, the one time I just had to stop the car because I was crying so hard was the day I went to Ms. Linda's apartment last year and said goodbye because she was moving away...that was hard...I started tearing up once I got into my car.) Personally, I am ramen noodles. As a child, I dont remember crying except for when I was trying to get my way....:-/ somehow that doesnt shock me...lol
@JeNeSaisQuoi86 - Thank you. I think my whole family has watched me cry, and my best friends have caught me in a moment (except for Dunham, unless you count the laughter I cried about.) As for up so late...I didnt go to sleep until about 6:45...(yes, i seem to jump into everyones conversation lol) And thank you on the layout. Yeah I did make it. I used to do graphic design for fun way back when. I guess thats something you dont forget....*shrugs* lol
@JeNeSaisQuoi86 - You know I have an hour on you, I'm Central time zone. So why were YOU up so late!??!
@manofcivility - lol, I had just woken up from 5 hours of sleep. I can never make it to 8. I guess my body doesnt need 8 hours...
@whoanow - You got nice talent...the layout looks cool. Everything blends so nicely. LOL @ you jumpin in the convo. I dont mind.
lol. It's interesting that you cry, and endearing that you admit it here. I cry too when I see something on t.v. or in real life that's touching, and to be honest even being a girl I still try to hide it. Props for knowing about the endocrine system.Â
@maybmaybnot - Lol yeah, mikeyville is kinda like Michael Unplugged or something. Lol. I think its a normal reaction to try to hide it, so it seems. But yes, the Endocrine system is wonderful...dont forget the fact that I know a bit too much for comfort of the female anatomy to the point where you wonder if i am a OB/GYN at night....
okay so maybe not but still..lol
"Never apologize for showing feeling. When you do so you apologize for truth." ~Benjamin Disraeli Just thought I'd share...
you're so cute! this made me smile